I have spent a lot of the last few months just going through the motions. During the times I lead worship I have felt so free from stress and the things that hold me back. It’s one of the few times when I’ve been consistently real. During regular life, however, there are places to be, things to do, work to accomplish…etc. I know that there is a lot that I have on my plate, but the Lord has been calling me back to him Himself consistently.

The majority of this is centered around the fact that I don’t read the Bible enough. I used to do so every morning, but I’ve gotten out of the habit of it. I stay up late, get up late, and scramble to get to work on time. Somewhere in there I need to insert some time with God. But I haven’t been.

Last weekend I attended a women’s retreat in McCall. We talked about loving God with all our mind. I thought this over and I know that I do love the Lord, but I’ve realized that I don’t show it as consistently as I should. If I were in a relationship, I would seek out the company of the person that I was going out with. The time spent in company with that person is necessary to encourage trust, intimacy, and familiarity.

How can I expect to maintain a strong relationship with God if I don’t pursue that time with Him?

I am NOT a morning person. While I love that when I do get up in the morning I feel more productive, I hate the actual getting up part of morning. When I am able to get myself up, I have been reading the daily path that my Bible suggests. That’s been very helpful to get me into the habit of reading the Word. But on the mornings that I can’t seem to get up in time, I make it a point to pray and thank the Lord for the day and the blessings to come, etc. as I prepare.

Just the change in perspective, while not a perfect example, has done wonders for me. I can see the Lord at work softening my responses to people, encouraging diligence, and resting in the face of trials that I might have worried over excessively. I’m not perfect, and I’m sure that something tomorrow will cause me stress or worry, but now that I’m getting back on track, I feel so much more able, through the Lord, to handle those things.

Praise the Lord that He knows what we need before we even think to ask it for ourselves!

I struggled with this set a bit. I don’t usually choose so many songs that appear to be disconnected. But the more I prayed, the more the Lord showed me that this was the set that I should play.

Enjoy the recordings. They’ve been ministering to me since Sunday.

1. Blessed Be Your Name
   
2. Revelation Song
   
3. The Stand
   
4. Savior, Like a Shepherd Lead Us
   
5. Lord, Listen to Your Children Praying/I Love You, Lord
   

So I know I promised updates (videos, etc.). I tried, I really did, but I couldn’t get a camera that I liked. I’m going to search a bit more this weekend and see if I can find a good one.

Until then, I have been listening to this recording from Engage Truth (Calvary Chapel Boise’s college-age service) where I had an awesome time in worship. I realized that I hadn’t yet shared it with you guys. So enjoy!

(Forgive the mess up on the words of “None But Jesus”…;-) I had just learned the song that day and forgot the words!!!)

1. All Who are Thirsty
   
2. Pour Out My Heart
   
3. Holy Fire
   
4. Jesus, Draw Me Close/None But Jesus
   
5. All Creatures of Our God & King